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One of the oldest cathedrals in Tucson is a few blocks from my house. Its St. Augustine's, who is the patron saint of Tucson. And the cathedral is next door to a Pep Boys. Every Sunday the church fills with people going to mass; its their destination. But if they need an oil change while they're there, well thats just convenient.

Now you need to understand, Carlee is not a celebrity to me because she is a cancer patient, or a single mom, or a once-was-and-again-soon-to-be late night waitress at the Grill. She is the girl who I made creme brule, ate Dominoes pizza and watched Rosemary's baby with. She entrusted me with the wise wisdom "you cannot draw a butterfly onto a piece of paper and eat it into your stomach." Maybe its an in-joke, and you wont understand. But I do. Sometimes I feel like the Pep Boys to her St. Augustine, but thats ok. I don't like the lime light. I'm content being "her friend", and not being a friend. You know? Or maybe thats an in-joke too.

I have abandonment issues, but if you don't know that by now you never will. But no longer can I say that I'm self conscious, I took off that hat long ago. At least I'm making improvements.